Insatiable….
Ever want a story to go on forever? I have! Just finished reading the Twilight Series……after 4 books and over 2500 pages, my need for Bella & Edward’s forever love is still Insatiable. I have never been much of a reader but these books have changed me forever……reading every night till almost 2am and at every chance I got….the need to keep feeling that strong bond of love remains insatiable. Surprising but true, I guess we all long for that never-ending happy ending that seems so plausible in books rather than real life. But the truth of that reality doesn’t stop us from getting drenched in that complete fantastical reality of the true love we all desire and yearn for! I guess that’s why they say that love is the essence of life and we end up losing ourselves in the reality of this so called emotion that is so hard to describe yet so easy to feel…..an emotion that provides contentment yet is so unequivocally Insatiable…..
Fantasy, Reality and Destiny!
I shamelessly admit that I love to dream both day and night but I do know the difference between reality and fantasy, of what I can or cannot have…or do I…I wonder sometimes? Sometimes, I believe too much in the idea of wanting something really bad that I feel that if I just focus my thoughts on it by thinking positive that I might just get it. There is nothing wrong with that school of thought although sometimes the line between reality and fantasy becomes too blurry. I wonder then, if I should stop dreaming and I say to myself…why? Why should I stop dreaming? I know that it is a fantasy and there is a chance that it will never become a reality but what if it could? Isn’t it better to believe that a fantasy could become a reality rather than not believing it at all?
I like to believe that I am a very optimistic person and that anything and everything is possible if you try real hard unless of course, it is not in your destiny. In that case, atleast you don’t have the regret of not trying and not attempting to make an effort to change your destiny…who knows, if the guy upstairs is impressed…he might just grant me that fantasy that I really want to be my reality….oh yeah, I am a religious person although not an orthodox or fanatic one but rather more spiritual who believes in destiny.
So, going back to the destiny thing…I truly believe that everyone has a destiny and ultimately that is what happens but that does not mean that we just sit in one place and twiddle our thumbs waiting for it to happen. It will still happen if the effort is made to make it happen. Also, the effort is more important as compared to achieving that destiny because that effort is our journey that teaches us whether or not that fantasy can become a reality and who knows it just might?
With that belief, I continue to dream and enjoy my fantasies hoping to transform them into realities but understanding that even if they don’t become realities that they were probably not meant to and there is something else out there that is even better and just waiting to happen!
Keep your butt in place!
It drives me insane when people smoke in my face but I have become quite tolerant over the years as people have become a bit more sensible about not smoking in your face…thanks to the regulations on smoking in designated spaces. Although, one habbit that drives me beserk is when people smoke in their car and then throw the cigarette butt out their window while driving. Come on people, it is bad enough that you smoke in your car and then you have to go and dump that nasty butt out the window so it flies into someone’s dashboard and litters the road. Who is going to clean up your mess? Yes there are no regulations that disallow you to smoke in your car so why then do you not keep the cigarette butt in your car ashtray. Just empty the ashtray in the proper place when you get out of the car and that is not the road but a garbage can! Please keep your ugly butt off our face i.e. our windshield and away from the roads for which we pay through our noses in taxes to help keep them clean. Afterall, it will help reduce your damn taxes as well….think about it, it is not rocket science that you won’t get!
Patience?
It seems people have no patience these days especially while driving. Today I noticed an apalling sight while waiting at a red light. A gentlemen who was visually impaired was trying to rightfully cross the road with his white cane. Upon crossing one road and passing the median, he found himself confused and had difficulty crossing the rest of the road because people were in such a rush to make sure they caught the light that they caused a gridlock. Poor guy could not figure out which way to go because there were too many cars with narrow criss cross paths in between them. Finally, the cars moved ahead instead of waiting back and he was able to cross to the other side of the road. I could not believe how people could be so impatient as to not let a person cross the road when it is his right to do so especially someone who has to rely on a white walking cane to see or rather feel the road. Seems like people have no value for life or the respect for pedestrians….shame on them and geez…would it kill you to have some patience? On the contrary, don’t you realize that you will kill someone by being so impatient…grow up and respect others!
A beautiful dream!
…….She stands in moonlight in his living room looking out the balcony door. The wind blows through and the sheer curtains kiss her ever so gently. She stands still in his white shirt looking at the moon wondering about her feelings for him unbeknownst to her he is watching her through his bedroom. He is unable to stop himself and is pulled in by her angelic beauty. As he gently walks up to her, she steps out on the balcony and looks to the moon hoping that he will feel what she feels for him. At that very moment, she feels him standing next to her and she skips a heartbeat. He gently touches her hand with his left hand and turns her towards him while he strokes her face to move a strand of hair back with his right hand. She closes her eyes and rests her face against his hand. He kisses her on her forehead and then her eyes but stops there. She quivers with the electricity flowing through her body and melts in his arms. He carries her inside and lays her down on her bed. He strokes her face with his gentle but strong fingers and silently lies down next to her just holding her like a little baby. She sleeps in his arms in a deep peaceful sleep feeling the contentment of a lifetime. He watches her sleep while stroking her silky long tresses wondering why it took them this long to meet. He is in awe of her inner beauty that makes her more beautiful on the outside and at this moment he realizes that she is the one he was looking for all these years. He awaits for the morning sun to shine so he can express his love to her once and for all……..
Forever Love!
You are my love,
You are my life,
You are the strength in my strife,
You are the one who makes me whole,
And, our connection is from deep within the soul,
I will always soothe your pain,
I will ease your strain,
You are the one who brings me joy,
I want you to know that with your feelings, I will never toy,
You are the most important to me,
A person who always sets me free,
Free to do as I always please and live my life the way I feel,
I know our love will continue to grow,
With every passing year, our passion will never slow,
I give you my love today and tomorrow,
Together we will face every joy and sorrow,
On this day, I promise you a lifetime of loyalty, happiness and love,
In return, I expect you to be my guardian angel and love me like a gentle dove,
Together we will overcome all that life throws our way,
And live a complete life full of love that will never sway.
P.S. I Love You!
I very rarely cry through movies now….time and life has toughened me up over the years such that I don’t cry during movies anymore. But my emotional strength could not withstand the latest movie I watched with my friends. The movie was called P.S. I Love You with one of my favourite actors Gerard Butler in it. I watched the movie because of him…love his accent, his humour and ofcourse he is not bad on the eyes either…if you know what I mean? 
Oh boy, did I ever set myself up for a kleenex session. The movie is about love, loss and moving on after someone’s passing and these ofcourse touched a very tender nerve in me. I am a hopeless romantic who loves love, cannot take a loved ones loss as that is the biggest fear I have in my life and the absolute truth of how do you move on after someone passes on from this world is a truth that I never can imagine myself accepting. I can be really strong when other people lose someone and can be their pillar of strength but that reality also poses a threat to my strength when time comes of me losing someone I love….I don’t know how I will handle that? The movie just brought my inner fears to the surface which is a good thing but is definitely a bad thing coz right now in this moment, I want to live in denial. The fear is there but the denial just keeps me calm for a bit. I think it is like a warm blanket that soothes a baby and keeps it calm. Although, denial isn’t a solution that will solve anything I know but how do I come to terms with the fact that one day I will wake up and my loved one whether it is a parent, sibling or the love of my life will not be there anymore? How will then I ever tell them….P.S. I Love You! except for in my prayers and would that be enough for me I wonder and I know it won’t be yet it will have to be……P.S. I Hate This!
….Go on forever!
We are here in this moment,
Don’t know where we will be tomorrow,
Whether we become one or not,
Whether we live or not,
This love will live on forever,
To be forgotten never,
Like a sweet melody,
It will be heard around,
Till the earth goes round,
And the Sky stands proud,
Below the beautiful angelic cloud,
The sweetness will linger on,
And our love shall forever go on.
One Rock is all one needs!
We all go through a phase of our lives where confusion, frustration, depression and anxiety take over our very being. In those crazy times, it only takes one steady rock to ground us. Imagine, you are having a professional crisis and if your personal life is steady and full of contentment then you can tackle that crisis with renewed vigour and creativity. However, if all arenas of your life are under attack, then the discontentment grows to larger than life proportions and creates havoc in your life. I truly believe that if at least one area of your life is content, then you can deal with the other craziness of your life but finding that one area where you are content is the toughest task. In these changing times, when our tastes, desires, needs and wants change every second…..how then is it a simple task to find that one rock that grounds you and leads to contentment? I guess there is no single simple answer to this question but from my experience I would say that it greatly helps in being an optimist and harnessing the positive energy to charge through the hurricanes of life and reaching that one steady rock that will save us from the craziness around us. I still search for that One Rock just like many others around me and I have the hope of finding it soon. It is out there and very close for me to discover…it is just a matter of time before I cruise through the hazy hurricane that is life but I will get there…get there I will….to my One Rock!
I am so over you….am I not?
I was having a deep conversation with a friend who was married for over 35yrs and one day their spouse just left them. They were telling me how a day before that was exactly 10yrs since the spouse left. It took them 10yrs to come to terms with it and truly get over them. You might think…what a sap, it takes them this long to get over a relationship… well for starters those two had been together sine they were 13, migrated to this country together, struggled together, got married, had 3 beautiful kids and lots of success and wealth. How can then someone after so long just walk out you would wonder…well it happens to the best of them. I guess people just change after a while….their likes change and everything starts to fall apart. In that case, how does one get over someone….? Well, I guess getting over someone is not that easy and sometimes one never does but at other times it just happens or we just make ourselves believe that we are over someone and then that belief eventually becomes a reality. Although, that reality can come crashing down in any given weak moment. This friend had several of those weak moments in the past 10yrs but over time they just realized that they don’t ever want to go back to that anymore even if the opportunity did arise…it is like an awakening….one day you just wake up and say…I am so over that person who has caused me all this grief in my life and boom…..you are over them. Not so easy for everyone but I truly believe that if one gives themselves an opportunity to move forward with their life then it definitely happens…it is a frame of mind…a psychological issue where one must muster their strength to think optimistically and, positively move forward in a direction that leads them out of their past into their future….everyone deserves to be happy…that’s my strong belief…you get one life and you have to make the most of it.
