Isn’t it Ironic, don’t you think?

Isn’t it ironic that the person we don’t want in our life, we cannot get rid of and the person we want more than anything, wants to get rid of us! We hurt those who love us and love those who hurt us!

Murphy’s law i guess and let me tell you……i don’t like this murphy guy who has made life full of so many contradictions! Contradictions that make life so painful and sad at times. Life used to be simple, now its too complicated but then again I was a little girl who wanted to be a big girl to experience the sophistication and complexity of life….now i am a big girl, wishing to be a little girl again so i don’t have to deal with the complexity and pain of the adult life….i want life to be simple again…..it is indeed ironic how we want what we don’t have and don’t want what we do or can have! C’est la vie!

 

I Love You

I love you….3 words that are so powerful yet so over-used that the true essence of their gentle verbal caress gets lost some times. To love is to truly surrender ones heart and soul to their beloved but does the beloved recognize the sanctity of that surrender is the true test? The test of their undying love that was expressed with those 3 pious words or is it the test of their true character to see if they are truly ready to bind themselves in each other’s magic? The magic of their emotions that once became a mesmerizing potion which over-powered them inside and out to cause an explosive feeling of so many different colors of life……..colors that blinded them with complete love and passion and made them believers of second chances……..are they READY for their second chance is the true question?

 

Ready, Set….Go!

This is a typical traffic junction of any time of any day anywhere in Delhi. Looking at them, you would think they are ready for a race and you would be right because everyone is in fact in a race to move ahead before the other; cutting any corners, driving on any footpaths or shoulders they come across to get to their destination. No one cares for fender-benders, everyone just moves ahead in a herd following the path to somewhere……not sure where they are off to but everyone is always on the move in that part of the world…….  

 

Balancing Act!

The most amazing sights are seen at the most unlikely moments. Glad I had a camera to capture this balancing act…kudos to the kid who impeccably balanced a washing machine on a scooter. What is amazing to us is a way of life for some. What a world of difference does a world different from ours makes. Our world being different than their’s because we live in the so called western world that has 2 men and a truck facilities to move even our little stuff from one place to the other while 2 men and a little scooter move big machines like these as if it was child’s play. Amazing how we still complain about the things we should actually learn to appreciate! I guess that is the way of the western world…or is it…or should it be so?

 

Insatiable….

Ever want a story to go on forever? I have! Just finished reading the Twilight Series……after 4 books and over 2500 pages, my need for Bella & Edward’s forever love is still Insatiable. I have never been much of a reader but these books have changed me forever……reading every night till almost 2am and at every chance I got….the need to keep feeling that strong bond of love remains insatiable. Surprising but true, I guess we all long for that never-ending happy ending that seems so plausible in books rather than real life. But the truth of that reality doesn’t stop us from getting drenched in that complete fantastical reality of the true love we all desire and yearn for! I guess that’s why they say that love is the essence of life and we end up losing ourselves in the reality of this so called emotion that is so hard to describe yet so easy to feel…..an emotion that provides contentment yet is so unequivocally Insatiable…..

 

Keep your butt in place!

It drives me insane when people smoke in my face but I have become quite tolerant over the years as people have become a bit more sensible about not smoking in your face…thanks to the regulations on smoking in designated spaces. Although, one habbit that drives me beserk is when people smoke in their car and then throw the cigarette butt out their window while driving. Come on people, it is bad enough that you smoke in your car and then you have to go and dump that nasty butt out the window so it flies into someone’s dashboard and litters the road. Who is going to clean up your mess? Yes there are no regulations that disallow you to smoke in your car so why then do you not keep the cigarette butt in your car ashtray. Just empty the ashtray in the proper place when you get out of the car and that is not the road but a garbage can! Please keep your ugly butt off our face i.e. our windshield and away from the roads for which we pay through our noses in taxes to help keep them clean. Afterall, it will help reduce your damn taxes as well….think about it, it is not rocket science that you won’t get!

 

Patience?

It seems people have no patience these days especially while driving. Today I noticed an apalling sight while waiting at a red light. A gentlemen who was visually impaired was trying to rightfully cross the road with his white cane. Upon crossing one road and passing the median, he found himself confused and had difficulty crossing the rest of the road because people were in such a rush to make sure they caught the light that they caused a gridlock. Poor guy could not figure out which way to go because there were too many cars with narrow criss cross paths in between them. Finally, the cars moved ahead instead of waiting back and he was able to cross to the other side of the road. I could not believe how people could be so impatient as to not let a person cross the road when it is his right to do so especially someone who has to rely on a white walking cane to see or rather feel the road. Seems like people have no value for life or the respect for pedestrians….shame on them and geez…would it kill you to have some patience? On the contrary, don’t you realize that you will kill someone by being so impatient…grow up and respect others!

 

P.S. I Love You!

I very rarely cry through movies now….time and life has toughened me up over the years such that I don’t cry during movies anymore. But my emotional strength could not withstand the latest movie I watched with my friends. The movie was called P.S. I Love You with one of my favourite actors Gerard Butler in it. I watched the movie because of him…love his accent, his humour and ofcourse he is not bad on the eyes either…if you know what I mean? Oh boy, did I ever set myself up for a kleenex session. The movie is about love, loss and moving on after someone’s passing and these ofcourse touched a very tender nerve in me. I am a hopeless romantic who loves love, cannot take a loved ones loss as that is the biggest fear I have in my life and the absolute truth of how do you move on after someone passes on from this world is a truth that I never can imagine myself accepting. I can be really strong when other people lose someone and can be their pillar of strength but that reality also poses a threat to my strength when time comes of me losing someone I love….I don’t know how I will handle that? The movie just brought my inner fears to the surface which is a good thing but is definitely a bad thing coz right now in this moment, I want to live in denial. The fear is there but the denial just keeps me calm for a bit. I think it is like a warm blanket that soothes a baby and keeps it calm. Although, denial isn’t a solution that will solve anything I know but how do I come to terms with the fact that one day I will wake up and my loved one whether it is a parent, sibling or the love of my life will not be there anymore? How will then I ever tell them….P.S. I Love You! except for in my prayers and would that be enough for me I wonder and I know it won’t be yet it will have to be……P.S. I Hate This!

 

Have you found your weirdo yet?

It feels great to sometimes ponder over what true love is. Love has been described in so many ways by so many people and has been compared to many things but weirdness is something different. I came across a quote on some site by Robert Fulghum whom I don’t know and it states……

“When we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness – and call it love – true love.” Robert Fulghum

As I read this quote, I instantly liked it and believed every word of it. Not many people term themselves as weird but I truly think that we all are weird in our own way. Everyone feels weird at some point in their life, whether it is a first date, first kiss, first time you have sex, first pregnancy, first interview, first public speech, presentation and many more moments in the life that might not even be the firsts for someone. Most people think of weirdness as a negative notion but in my opinion weirdness is just indifference from a certain standard that is termed as normal by the self-proclaimed “normal” people of our society. If we look closely, we will see that everyone has some level of weirdness in them because it is all about ones perception of another person. If I don’t know of something that you say or have then I will automatically think that you are weird to even think of a notion that is not known or own something that is out of the ordinary and vice versa.

I believe that love is also about weirdness. When someone is looking for love or is in love then that person does a lot of things that are out of the ordinary and somtimes even against their own nature or rationalism. Once we attain that true love, we look back and just laugh at our weirdness but in reality we are still living in that weirdness because we have now found our soulmate that is compatible with us at many levels including weirdness by either being tolerant of our weirdness or being actually weird like us. That must be fun….and we can actually in good fun then say….what a bunch of weirdos…lol….honestly, that is an amazing sense of accomplishment when you find the weirdo that is meant for you and I truly hope that you the reader have either found yours or will find them soon…good luck!

 

Early Mid-Life Crisis OR Adaption to the changing times?

These days it seems like either everyone is having an early mid-life crisis or they are just learning to aptly adapt to the changing times. I think there is a very fine line between the two. The dilemma that most people face these days is…for example when it comes to careers…should they stick to the career they went to school for or should they change to something they love to do and have been meaning to do for a long time or change to something that makes them a little more marketable plus earns them an extra buck? For those of you who are super smart, have the job of your dreams or already earn big bucks…. please stop reading here….because this would just go way over your heads and will sound non-sensical to you….no offence, I know you are smart but maybe book smart I say.

Like I was saying…the dilemma! Some people term this dilemma as an early mid-life crisis while others with a bit more optimistic outlook consider it just pondering over options to adapt to the changing times…after all we are living in the 21st century. So I wonder….is it true that we all are just trying to adapt to the changing times by changing careers or even our outlook in life OR is it just a cover-up for another mid-life crisis?

Perhaps some of us think that it is a mid-life crisis and we start to panic as a result do all kinds of weird things. Although, even if we didn’t panic, we would still do weird things….afterall, we are adapting and to adapt, we have to change something which means we try different things that we have never done before. These could easily be weird for some people depending on how crazy one gets….also it would be a perception issue i.e. how and what one perceives of another. So, all this would mean that we are adapting even if we are having a mid-life crisis…which means, it is all interrelated and is subjective.

Although, I still think that people use the term mid-life crisis quite conveniently and without even knowing what it is…hell I don’t even know what it is but then again how would I know…I am not even middle-aged yet! It’s just something that people use so loosely around me that I thought I should ponder over it…it does deserve some face-time afterall… !